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I miss you Being so far away Can't wait for the day That I see you again Time stands still Waiting for you If only you knew How your smile makes me feel I miss you Hearing your laughter I wish time went by faster So I could see you again

Missing you I'm sitting here now Writing this An missing you. Its a pain, A constant longing That never goes away. I lie in bed at night Wishing you were here To hold me tight. I feel so empty I feel so alone I only want to be in your arms. I wish i could see you If only for 5 minutes, I long to hear your voice. I want you here, I need you here Now and forever. But instead I am left alone Trapped in this hole And missing you...

This wasn't planned. I didn't try to have this happen. I didn't mean to fall, This wasn't planned. This wasn't expected. I didn't think to cling. I didn't think to love. This wasn't expected. This wasn't accepted. I didn't think they'd care. I didn't think they'd mind. This wasn't accepted. This was tentative. I was scared. I was afraid This was tentative. This was unwanted by many. I was in love. I was uncaring. This was unwanted. This was desired. I was in love. I was falling. This was desired. This wasn't planned. And I don't care.

   I was important to her. I was important to her and it gave my life meaning.  She had no one else to talk to.  Her boyfriend had left her and I was her only real friend.  She called me crying night after night.  She felt so empty.  She felt so alone.  She blamed herself though it was clearly his fault.   I cried for her.  I prayed for her.  I offered her my shoulder to cry on.  She was so sad.  I wanted to help her.  After a couple days she stopped crying.  She kept calling me.  I kept praying for her.  She started to look happier.  She kept calling me.  I kept praying for her.  After two weeks she got over him.  She was happy again.  

Once again all alone I suppose I must deserve it I'm clingy and annoying Obnoxious and dense Rash and silly Lazy and obsessive Sometimes I hate myself I want to draw people in But only push them away I cry so much lately Because everything hurts Maybe I'm not meant to be happy I force my smile I fake my laugh Does anyone notice? Does anyone care? It's not "Like Me" to be so Depressed? Upset? Angry? What is 'like me'? Someone tell me Because I don't know myself anymore Once again, as before I'm all alone